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Gotta start somewhere

2026 Jun 14

And then start again, and again. Then put it in a large pile of to-do's for later, then a decade later you decide to sift through said pile and some how think that you can start again. But it's so unbelievably messy that it takes you another five tries before you finally end up with something worth sharing.And here I am. My first blog post in well over a decade. But who's counting... I know. I'm not.See you soon (or in a decade and bit; only time will tell).

Terminal Boredom

2026 Oct 05

Everything everywhere all at once seems to just be the norm these days. We don’t seem to get a break from one atrocity to the next. Nor do we get a break from the barrage of propaganda that is in full swing at the moment—and if you are not a reader then the algorithm will keep you blinded. We are overworked, overtired, overstimulated, and yet also at the same time incredibly bored. Let’s face it, there is so much slop (on repeat) out there that we don’t even get a chance to be truly bored. And boredom is when our little quantum meat-sacks are at their best!Reading is on a decline which is far too worrisome to get into the finite details on here. So I won’t.I am an avid reader and often get asked, but how do you do it? Well quite frankly, it’s a not a big secret, it’s just plain old discipline. I make sure I read, even when I don’t want to. Yes, Janet there are days when reading is the last thing I want to do. But I do. Because I know that if don’t read my mind goes to the screen and then the images flooding my poor little meat-sack can’t handle it. Then the spiraling begins. And well… I might as well have stayed in bed all day. I would’ve been more productive.So here’s the thing. Reading IS political. It will challenge you, it will make your head hurt, it will make you sometimes wish you hadn’t read that book. It will make you question every iota of your belief system, your own mere existence, and then some. There will be times where you get so lost in your thoughts, you’ve been staring (and muttering) at a wall for hours (this happens far too often for me, myself, and I). You will often feel lost. Wonder how you’ll ever be able to move on. And THAT ladies and gentlemen is where all the magic happens. That is boredom.We all desperately need to be striving for this level of boredom. Every minute of every day does not need to be occupied with “productivity”! Fuck that! Your brain is a muscle and it needs exercise! You see, that level of boredom is the boredom that they (billionaires, fascists, tech-bro’s, pseudo-intellectuals, etc.) don’t want us doing. A free thinking society is a hard society to control.They want us numb, so numb that thinking is too hard. So we’ll outsource it. Most have already. If we give over our ability to think on our own accord, then it’s much easier for a small group to manipulate our malleable minds. Not a good outcome at all. Think about it…please oh please think until it hurts!

So, if you want to fight for your right to your mind—AND IT IS YOUR FUCKING MIND, NO ONE OWNS IT!—Pick up a goddamn book and read it. It’ll probably be trash but your little mind will think it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to it.Want a really good high that doesn’t damage your nervous system… then READ!!!Before you realise it, you’ll start reaching for more challenging topics, from historical fiction based on real actual (not white washed) history, to a sci-fi romance that is two steps away from being a romantic poetry collection. And then one glorious day you’ll find yourself reading non-fiction science books as if you are the expert in this field—you are not and you’ll spend most of your time reading this book for the lay person wondering how you’ve gotten through life so unbelievably dumb. And you’re gonna love that feeling cause you’ll start craving even more. And more and more and more. Yeah, you’ll be the Cookie Monster of consuming written text by humans.That is the goal! Knowledge is power. With this knowledge you will find parts of yourself you always knew were there. The places that have been fighting to be seen and heard. But the algorithm suppresses them. But finally, they will be seen and heard. Your soul, your heart, and you little quantum meat-sack will be forever grateful you did the hard work to keep them alive.I want to leave you with this quote from Carl Sagan that left me feeling lacking as a reader, but you know what, challenge accepted. “If I finish a book a week, I will read only a few thousand books in my lifetime, about a tenth of a percent of the contents of the greatest libraries of our time. The trick is to know which books to read.”You don’t have to aim for the stars, for an hour a day keeps the fascists away!Happy reading my lovelies ^^